"Giving Thanks"
In nature God gave us so many pictures of His loving care. When I look at this mother bird with the little chicks under her wings I see myself and my best friend, Gerald. How thankful I am today for the way God cuddles us close to Him. Finally I can say I'm thankful for these desert years - thankful for the lessons I've learned and especially the simplicity of my relationship with God. It feels so good to know I can cuddle under His wings and recount the ways that I love Him, even when I don't feel anything at the moment but empty. I'm thankful I don't have to pretend to be super spiritual when I feel as flat as one can be and still breathe. I'm thankful for a Mother who held me under her wings without clipping mine. I'm thankful for a husband who hasn't a clue how to hold me or anyone else under his wings, but loves me with every ounce of his being. I'm thankful I learned a long time ago how to "Mother" myself. Through the years I've experience the heights and deeps of life, I've had wonderful friends and I've had acquaintances who betrayed - I'm thankful for both ends of the spectrum - let's me know I'm fully human and so are they. I've wanted to run away and I've wanted to stay forever, somewhere in the middle I found that how I feel at any given moment may not be the sum total of my existence, just a feeling and it too will pass. Tonight I'm thankful for my precious boys and their families - I'm glad they have a place to belong and someone to love them for themselves. In looking at all these things that I'm thankful for I have to confess; it's hard for me to be thankful in the waiting room. I want to make things happen, I want to work, I want to make a difference, I want order and purpose to come again. .. I'm thankful that I can still say these things and still know that tonight I'll sleep under the Father wings, just like every night since I came HOME to Him. Tonight I am thankful!
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