Home at Last

   
There have been times in these ten years that I've wondered, where is home?  I've looked for it in the places we've lived, the people we've ministered to and daily routine that has been the glue to hold us together.  Gerald and I have been married almost 53 years,  we're still best friends and lovers, but he has such a vagabond heart, I could never say he was home, although he has been the most constant human on the planet.   He has called a few churches home, but I wouldn't say a church house would be my home.  Recently I reconnected with friends from the 70's and declared surely this is home ~ they were not home.  Then five weeks ago we moved again (are you suprised?) and I asked that question again - where is home, is it in the same town with our wonderful children?    I know the answer at last. . . my home is in God.  That is the only place I feel complete, the only place I feel truly secure, the only place I feel totally understood and yes,  loved un-conditionally.  Does not that home include the important people and places that I've talked about;  only it I know for myself who God truly is ~ God is home.  It's surely sweet to rest in His presence, consume His words and practice His principles.

I think all these years with all the moves and all the people the one thing that needed to be addressed:  do I trust God with all the unknown, with all the inconsistencies, with all the changes?   His Name means Trust - The God in whom I Trust!  I know we have that on our coins momentarily, "In God we Trust" ~ but for me it has finally become the bed I sleep in, the clothes I wear, the food I eat, the people I love and the work that calls my name.  Home, Trust, Security, Love - He wraps it all up when he said, "Come unto me and I will give you rest".  Rest from my wandering, rest from the people that I cannot complete, and most important of all rest from myself.  Yep, it takes a life time of living to come full circle and know - my Home is in God.  Wow, home at last;  think I'll take my shoes off and sit awhile - it feels so good to be Home!
Paulette